THIS IS MY LIFE
I NEED TO WEAR THIS ON MY FACE
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The vasculature of a porcine heart. The blood is replaced by a plastic substance and then put into a solution that dissolves the tissue.
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This video hurts my soul. There is a difference between “a spanking” and outright beating a child. I’ve never made a video about this, but watching this brings back a lot of hatred of my childhood. Judge William Adams needs to go to jail for this sort of child abuse that was a common occurrence according to his daughter.
The same thing would happen to me as a child. My parents were divorced and my mom had massive anger problems. She always knew I loved my dad more and it infuriated her. One time in particular I got “caught” talking to my dad on the phone even though my mom had banned me from speaking with him. She was furious. She whipped off her belt and just went to town. Legs, arm, neck, and back (Much like Judge Adams). Its one of the reasons I find it hard to love her. But the one silver lining that I take away from it is I will never beat my child. I will never be any of the terrible things my mom was. I’ve never shared that before.
These two adults are sick in the head…
My Personal Problems
1. I’ve got a cold, and my eustachian tubes are inflamed… it’s no wonder my hearing has been sort of “cloudy” lately. That’s not the best diagnosis at the moment, considering I’m expected to have 5 songs mixed by Thanksgiving. I now have the proper (over-the-counter) medications to suppress my symptoms until this passes. By the way, I’m contagious!
2. I’m annoyed with all this reading I have to do about feminism in the 20th century, but it’s almost over… just a few more pages. After this, I get to read some fairy tales! Yay! (And I’m not being sarcastic… I’m pretty excited.)
3. I don’t care as much about my grades this semester as I have in the past. It’s my last semester, you think I’d like to end it all with a BANG… but no. It all started when, after putting a few days’ worth of effort into studying, I made an 86 on my Brit Lit exam. It got even worse when after doing the same for an electronics exam and made a 79 (I have an A in everything else… except maybe in Chris Erlon’s audio/video class). I’m sinking. I hope I get a chance to come up for air soon, although I doubt it since we have only 5 or so weeks of classes left.
4. I need a car. I’m desperate for one. I barely started driving this year, which is sad enough, but I don’t have a car to drive. I don’t want one, but I seriously need one. Here’s my dilemma: I need a car so I can get a job, but I need a job to get a loan for a car. What am I to do?
5. That last one brings up another issue for me: money. I’m sitting atop a mountain of student loan debt that I’ll be rolling down in about 6 months. That’s pretty scary! I’d like a full-time job somewhere, almost anywhere, beginning after Thanksgiving break. If I don’t start raking in some *good* money soon, my future seems… well, it’s bad, and I don’t really want to think about it.
6. My mom’s mom is in the hospital with only 25% heart function (after three heart attacks and heart failure) and has been suffering with emphysema for quite a few years now. I don’t really know her well, and I’m sad that it’s at this point that I want to get to know her, but my mom loves her like I love my mom, so I can understand her pain. I love you, Grandma Tina. <3
There is no immediate fix for any of these problems. I’m glad, though, that this is all I have to deal with right now because there are worse things out there. I know that. Allow me to counter these six problems with six good things I’ve got going for me, if I can.
1. Thanksgiving is only 3 weeks away! I’m definitely looking forward to going home and seeing my family and Danny’s family and eating two (yes, TWO) Thanksgiving meals on Thanksgiving Day. =) I’m so fat.
2. I’m mixing! Despite the eustachian tube malfunction (shh, we’re trying to be positive here), I am mixing part of an album right now (doing what I love) and getting paid. That’s all any of us want out of life, and I’m getting my foot further in the door. Experience makes for better skills, or so I can only hope.
3. I feel like I’m slowly but surely catching up in all my classes. I haven’t really missed anything, but I haven’t been doing things I should be, like reading over notes in between classes or reading for english.
4. I’m going (probably briefly) to a friend’s birthday party tonight. I don’t go out much, so this will be quite an accomplishment!
5. Umm… hmm…
6. My home life is pretty stable. Not much can go wrong with a boyfriend trying to get through his last semester of classes and a cat, eh?
Well, I tried. I’m not in the positive-thinking state of mind at the moment. I’ve got homework sitting under my elbow and music playing that I can’t hear well or really pay attention to. I think I’m destined to be a “Negative Nancy”. So… until next time.
